SOMEONE FOR YOU

07/10/12

 Time's going on.....and on.....and on. 

 When people go, do they vanish? that's a whole big story. I have thoughts and beliefs but im also easily swayed by other people. 

 My life is a mess just now. No better than it has been the last few months and plunging into waiting for something to happen. 
I want something good for me to happen, but if it ever came, i would push it away because my guilt would make me feel bad for accepting it.

 it's hard, isnt it? Without turning this in to a 'woe is me' post, life is hard for the most part. 


Oh man, im actually watching The Only Way is essex just now and i honestly feel like i lose brain cells every time it comes on but i still watch it. WHHYYYYYY????
One guy just said "Your eyes are so big they're like conkers on your face!!!'

WTF??

Met this guy the other day and i'll be honest, can't be too honest, in case he reads this, chances are he won't but then if he does, it doesnt matter cos i won't name him anyway but it makes me realise that, even if its not him im meant to be with,there maybe is someone out there I could see myself being with. 

Its been a long time since ive seen myself with anyone for any length of time, ive been single for so long. 

All these people out there take chances on people, give it a go and if it ends it ends. 
I push it aside before its got a chance to get going, making all these excuses to not try it, when you should just say 'yeah ill go on a date.'

Maybe....maybe.

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