ANYTHING GOES...WHEN EVERYTHINGS GONE

13/10/12

 You are just treading water. I have a day off and am doing nothing, absolutely nothing 

 Truth is i can';t think of anything i want to do. I feel worried and anxious about things. 
and envious. 

 thats a lot of 'ious' words there haha.
My life feels so much different to the way things used to be. I was married.....for life i thought. but looking back over those old diaries, it was full of defeatism. Like i just expected this to be it even though it wasnt a happy relationship.

 I just thought that when you got married it was going to be forever.

But it has to be the right marriage and the right relationship doesnt it. 

 Whats the point of staying there because its expected. 

 Gone are the days when in the fifties, you got married, raised the kids and that was it 

 In a way im grateful for my failed marriage because it makes me who i am today. 
Everything in your life shapes who you become. i wish i could be someone better, someone stronger, someone happier. 



full of regrets, what only, if only. 
Its no way to live. 



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