Me and Me against The Night

 Me and me against the night 


When it reminds me that I’ll walk in the darkness by myself again. 


I’ve come out the dusk before but this time feels so different


I’m not alone because someone died

I’m alone because someone didn’t want my heart anymore 


I was amazing before 

And I haven’t changed but hearing “its not you it’s me” doesn’t ease the trauma 


As much as hearing strangers tell me their disdain for my heartbreak, it still makes me ache to the point that food cloys in my stomach. 


I wasn’t in the same place as you, I still had the love I had always. 


Will that fade away for me just because yours has? 


The pain is a physical bolt because I saw you as my forever and then the sun set too soon. 

And it’s darkness again. 


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