I"m Trying

 I used to write a lot. 

I couldn’t sleep so I wrote this ✍️ 

                               I’M TRYING…..

I’m trying to build a life

That’s worthy of me 

And I of it 

To wake up early and watch the rain 

I’m trying to remember I deserve love 

And those I love are life 

I’m trying to remind myself that minutes will end 

And time will march

I’m trying to manage every day when it’s a struggle 

When the step in front of me seems too far

And too difficult 

I’m trying to remember that I’m lucky 

That I have time left at the end of every day 

And that youth was helpful 

I need to have faith that the plan for me is happy and worthwhile 

And that the tears will lead to the right road

I’m trying to remind myself that I’m lucky to see the ruby sky at night

And the stars grow old with me too 

Im trying remember the carefree skips that ruled every day 

When things didn’t matter 

Things that seemed huge and hurtful don’t matter 

I don’t want them to matter anymore 

I’m trying to remember that the music in my head is what makes the soul dance 

And it needs to be louder 

I need to be louder 

I’m trying to remember what’s important and to give my time to that 

I’m trying to remember im grateful for age and for when my bones ache it reminds me im alive and im here 

A privilege denied to many 

Im trying to remember when I changed, when did I go quiet?

Im trying to remember me!