THE SAVIOUR OF MY MISTAKES 05/02/15
So much time goes by, your mind gets blocked and you think you've moved on. You haven't.
You just deal with it in a different way, something jolts me back to you.
Music, smells, memories.
I feel guilty.
`i am making so many mistakes and don't have the back up of you, my big brother. My heart.
Every day, im getting more and more tired, like i'm treading water until I get to see you again.
Said before and said again, when does it get easier? When I can't remember you at all?
But why would i want that?
Why would I want to forget the one who made me what I am, my stupid loudness, clumsiness, weirdo-ness
I am what I am because you were here and in a strange way, I am what i am because you're gone.
Pain suffocates me as strong as it did the day you went.
Moshing up in your room, i apologise, we smoked strawberry tea and burned the carpet. Mum would kill us if she knew where the burn came from.
You climbed down the drain pipe and broke it. Pretty sure you fell too, haha.
I remember being 13 listening to Green Day with you, long before it was cool to listen to them. Offspring too.
Wish I was 13 again, life was simple, no bills, no complications.
Hardest decision of the day was whether to listen to Oasis or Nirvana. Was Damon Albarn hot? but couldn't sing? Or Liam Gallagher minging but could sing? Liam or Noel??
Alex James or Kurt Cobain?
I hope you had the TIME OF YOUR LIFE, like they say.
Short as it was, it was good yeah?
Best to go while you're happy was it?
Even though you broke my heart?
I doubt the posts on this blog will ever ease up on the dramatic heartbreak......that's what this is for.
I couldn't keep it in, the tears would have flooded me.
Yeah everyone has bonds with people, maybe as strong as ours was, that's not important to me.
Our bond is the only one I care about.
I change the subject to make it back into a big joke, everythings a joke eh because otherwise it would be too sad.
You'll never be replaced for me, with anyone.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sTLy2JHaUg0
You just deal with it in a different way, something jolts me back to you.
Music, smells, memories.
I feel guilty.
`i am making so many mistakes and don't have the back up of you, my big brother. My heart.
Every day, im getting more and more tired, like i'm treading water until I get to see you again.
Said before and said again, when does it get easier? When I can't remember you at all?
But why would i want that?
Why would I want to forget the one who made me what I am, my stupid loudness, clumsiness, weirdo-ness
I am what I am because you were here and in a strange way, I am what i am because you're gone.
Pain suffocates me as strong as it did the day you went.
Moshing up in your room, i apologise, we smoked strawberry tea and burned the carpet. Mum would kill us if she knew where the burn came from.
You climbed down the drain pipe and broke it. Pretty sure you fell too, haha.
I remember being 13 listening to Green Day with you, long before it was cool to listen to them. Offspring too.
Wish I was 13 again, life was simple, no bills, no complications.
Hardest decision of the day was whether to listen to Oasis or Nirvana. Was Damon Albarn hot? but couldn't sing? Or Liam Gallagher minging but could sing? Liam or Noel??
Alex James or Kurt Cobain?
I hope you had the TIME OF YOUR LIFE, like they say.
Short as it was, it was good yeah?
Best to go while you're happy was it?
Even though you broke my heart?
I doubt the posts on this blog will ever ease up on the dramatic heartbreak......that's what this is for.
I couldn't keep it in, the tears would have flooded me.
Yeah everyone has bonds with people, maybe as strong as ours was, that's not important to me.
Our bond is the only one I care about.
I change the subject to make it back into a big joke, everythings a joke eh because otherwise it would be too sad.
You'll never be replaced for me, with anyone.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sTLy2JHaUg0
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